Gourmet magazine is folding and I think it may be my fault.
My grandmother told me to never let my subscription lapse; I always kept it going, no matter what. My husband renewed my subscription to Gourmet every year as a gift. He is the first to say that he benefited from my loyalty to the magazine.
I was told to never let it lapse, but in the end I did. It happened gradually. I began to view epicurious.com as my personal archive of Gourmet recipes. All of my favorite recipes for Thanksgiving, Easter, Christmas Brunch, and Christmas Dinner were there. Recipes for muffins for house guests and stews to console friends could be printed out in minutes. I began to ignore the roux-splattered magazines that lined my cookbook shelves. I wondered if it wouldn’t be “greener” and more responsible to stop the subscription. My husband was reluctant. He said my relationship to the magazine was about more than cooking, but in the end he agreed (“submitted” is his word). We finally canceled. We weren’t the only ones. Loyal subscribers logged on and subscriptions lagged.
My mother spent many Sunday afternoons reading and clipping recipes from Gourmet. She told me that in retrospect, she realizes that she cooked very few of those recipes. For her the magazine was about savoring possibility. And she loved the writers: MFK Fisher, Elizabeth David, James Beard. And our favorite: Laurie Colwin.
I clipped recipes, too, but I also clipped travel articles, my own homage to possibility. And when possibility became reality I knew where to eat and where to stay, no matter where in the world we were. Gourmet taught me about cooking and writing and a lot about travel, too.
But the magazine’s last lesson to me is this: Reading is meant to be delicious. Readers savor possibility in the turning of pages. There is a difference between skimming a screen and reading.
I know it now. When I began to log on to epicurious. com, I went straight to the recipes. I never read another essay; I never read another travel piece. Something important was eroding without my knowledge, but with my participation.
You may catch me skimming an article from the New York Times, the Washington Post, or the Richmond Times Dispatch on my iphone, but you won’t catch me reading one. Really reading a newspaper requires the smell of newsprint, the feel of its thin fibers between your fingers, and the sound of a paper (and story) unfolding. It also means supporting the writers financially. I know it now and I won’t let those subscriptions lapse.
From Gourmet I learned about the felicitous combination of orange and chocolate; caper and tomato; grapefruit and mint. Now I have a growing awareness of the value of morning coffee paired with my newspaper. It means more time at the breakfast table, help with the crossword puzzle, and ideas shared in random read-aloud snippets from articles, editorials, and letters to the editor. It means reading in company or reading in peaceful solitude.
It turns out that Gourmet wasn’t about the cooking. It was about the feast. Now I know–too late, but just in time– and I’m thankful.
We walked across Central Park to the Metropolitan Museum of Art. The bright light of the November sun brought the yellow leaves that fell around us into brilliant focus. My sister in law, two cousins, and I entered the park’s wilderness known as The Ramble. We knew where we were going, but wondered how and if we would come out in the right place. This required some backtracking, but we got there.
I continued walking. A woman was explaining a Degas painting to children: “Notice how the arm of the dancer repeats the shape of the handle of the watering can that is on the floor. Notice the repetition of pattern.”
Last year I saw Winslow Homer’s Country School at an art gallery in St. Louis; now a poster of the painting hangs in Room 204. That teacher in the one room schoolhouse and I are in the same business. We know that children are not all the same and they don’t all learn at the same rate. Children have different readiness levels and different gifts. They need different approaches to master the material at hand. She knows, as I know, that children can help each other. We are a community of learners. We need each other.
Last week, metaphors tiptoed into Room 204. They snuck into our third grade last Tuesday with Emily Dickinson, honored guest. We were reading one of her poems. Emily Dickinson wrote, “The morns are meeker than they were; the nuts are getting brown.” This is straightforward. But then she tells us, “The maple wears a gayer scarf.” This is less straightforward. We threw on our jackets and set out to find out what our new friend Emily was talking about. On the right October day this is not hard to do. Tuesday was the right October day.
People ask me how I became a storyteller. The question hangs in a split second of expectation: perhaps I know of a book… some little-known home-grown tome of tried and true tips. There are good books on storytelling, I’ve read lots of them, but that is not how I became a storyteller.
John D. Rockefeller gave the money for the University of Chicago to be built. Suddenly, there towered an extraordinarily beautiful university in a field. It looked, with its spires, towers, and cloisters, as though it had stood through time with Cambridge and Oxford and La Sorbonne. Those institutions took centuries to build, but this one was done– just like that. Finished. Complete. And yet… at the dedication someone noticed there were no paths. Had this been an oversight? Could the work be complete without the paths?
This is the view from my hammock. When I look up from my book, this is what I see. The word on the street is that I read a lot. True.